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Social life was becoming too stressful for Seralina, ever since her online friends disappeared.

In the hopes of getting away from it all, she decided she would move to a long-abandoned block called Risenshine. Nobody would ever bother her again.

...Right?

id & i is a psychological horror visual novel that takes place in the Ad Nauseam universe. However, it is a standalone experience that does not require you to have played Ad Nauseam first, nor will it spoil anything from the series.

This story is personal. What will you make of it?

It's highly recommended to play in FULLSCREEN.
If you have a non-standard monitor, you may run into issues making the game difficult to play.

This game features highly disturbing content.
Play at your own discretion.

Credits:

THROWPUP - Creator & Author, Music & Art Director, Technical Artist, Programmer, Animator, SFX Artist, Minor Artist

LOLRATZ - Background Artist, Composer, Asset Artist, Minor SFX Artist 

KOLULU - Character Artist, Concept Artist, Promotional Artist, Album Artist

Updated 19 days ago
Published 22 days ago
StatusReleased
PlatformsWindows, macOS, Linux
Rating
Rated 5.0 out of 5 stars
(56 total ratings)
Authorsthrowpup, lolratz, kolulu
GenreVisual Novel
Made withRen'Py, GIMP, Adobe Photoshop, Clip Studio Paint
TagsAnime, Atmospheric, Dark Fantasy, Female Protagonist, Horror, LGBT, No AI, Transgender, Yuri
Average sessionAbout an hour
LanguagesEnglish
InputsKeyboard, Mouse
AccessibilityHigh-contrast

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id & i
External
id&i Supporter Pack ❤ v2.zip 293 MB
if you pay $6.66 USD or more
id&i Supporter Pack ❤ v4.zip 363 MB
if you pay $6.66 USD or more

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Hi, your game got me hooked from end to finish, it was such a unique experience, that's why I would like to offer you a French translation for it, tell me if that's something you would want. You can see other games I've translated on my profile. (I've already emailed you, but you can contact me at: lorenzinihugo.trad@gmail.com)

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Oh! I just realized, is it called id & i as a reference to the organism’s unconscious array of uncoordinated instinctual needs, impulses and desires?

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Ouch, that was rough, in a good way. Would Recommend.

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Masterfully gross game. I loved it

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I squirmed watching the events go down. It was unique, grotesque, and wonderful. Thank you for creating such a cool game/vn.

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Amazing stuff! I absolutely love the music, I've playing the soundtrack on loop for a fair bit now.

Presentation/animation is wonderful, it really comes together for that disconcerting feel. I adore the sync with the music of "It All Blends." The mouse moving after certain clicks was a nice touch too.

And the ending—sublime.

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love the art, music, and story.
👍

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Sera’s the sort of character that I feel deeply mentally ill for identifying with, but that won’t stop me.

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God this game is so fucking good and it made me feel so icky, idk how to put it into words exactly but, ughh I loved it and it genuinely made me wanna cry, made my skin crawl. Amazing art and music, I kinda wanted more little websites to explore, and maybe I got more invested in Heart/Breaker and the VN Sera was playing than I should have but, aarhghhhh uaaaaaaa uweehhhh!!!!!!!!

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This one hurts so f###ing bad to read, and I don't know if I should extract life lessons or not from it. 

I think I'd do wrong by Clair and her final thoughts if I didn't. God this hurt so blissfully and thank you for that.

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This game makes me SICK, and I love it so much for that.

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absolute cinema.

this was the first VN i had read in years, and it was an incredible dive back into this genre. 

the art, music, and writing are all so perfectly glued together in such a satisfying way, i really really adore the scratchiness of everything. and the little idle game fuckin got me. i def sat there clicking.

ending fucked me up. thank you

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God, I'm not sure if reading this during a heatwave contributed to how off-kilter and nauseous I felt finishing this, but take it as a definite compliment that it left me feeling so affected! Read this on the strength of recommendations from friends, especially regarding the presentation and atmospheric elements, and man, they weren't kidding! I could feel the gnawing hopeless dread of the whole thing simmering under the false high of beautiful selfcest -- as soon as the title properly clicked for me I was very "ohhh!! oh no!!! giving yourself over fully to your id is never good, bestie!!" An absolute raw, open nerve of a game

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I don't even know where to begin.

The art is incredible, the OST is memorable, and the way everything is lit and shaky makes me feel nauseous(in a good way).

Also an incredible way of utilizing mini-games in a way that didn't feel intrusive or shoehorned in.

The amount of polish is incredible, y'all knocked it out of the park with this one.

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This was so sad!! :( :( :( Poor Seralina… It kind of reminds of Needy Girl Overdose but more realistic. She’s so lonely and her being lonely makes it worse…

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is this enough? :D

111m score
+1800 chainsaw

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keep it up soldier

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hehe no autoclicker (trust me)
418m score

Touch grass :d

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NEVVERRRRRR

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this game is so relatable yet like disturbing in a good way it was protrayed fantastically it made me unlock a new facial expression lowkey

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This work feels so vulnerable and true it hurts. Absolutely inspiring.

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ive never been good at socializing or making friends. art, to me, is communication, and that is how i choose to communicate with the rest of the world around me, because it's the only language i feel like i can truly understand.

i feel very easily when i interact with media. it's not difficult to make me cry. but the one thing that is so rare to find, that i just never seem to be able to stumble across, is that special spark that makes you feel connected -- like you are in a conversation with the work, and the thoughts and feelings that were poured into it.

for me, this is that work. i feel connected.

i dont get lonely, yet this game makes me feel less lonely still. it feels like a small shard of my soul was laid bare, and instills within me the faith that there are people out there who could understand me, even if it's just a little.

i've felt more impacted playing this than any other game or watching any other movie. i will be thinking about this game for a long time i think. thank you for existing. you are beautiful and you are loved.

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love love LOVE the presentation on this visual novel… not just visually with the panning 360 cgs and cleverly placed textboxes but also the interactive segments. they really put the player in seralina’s shoes… (the bottle draining and website browsing especially come to mind.)

as someone else said i also love the slow twisting of the meaning of “self-love” for seralina… from something gentle and accepting to a force that ultimately ends up tearing herself apart. the imagery at the end is delightfully gruesome and raw.

excellent work!

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GGUGH,. games Dont usually  affect me this much .but this was like,, something ELSE. made an account jsut to comment. the art, music, and story is incrediblem,, and gguweh . GOD. i love  seralina  so much. i didnt  expect the game  to take suhc a dark turn but im  so glad it did,  genuinly unlike anythign ive read  beofore <3 i love this game nd i <3 ad nasuem and  Your work  is some of tghe best ive evr seen. 

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Exemplary, incredible, wonderful work just like everything you put together. And the credits said this was a 2 month project for a 3 person team? I have no idea if that's accurate, but if so, wow. That is jaw droppingly impressive. Thanks so much for putting it out into the world. Really just some of the most inspiring, consistent, and impressive artists around on this little corner of the internet. Your team is so special and the things you make are like nothing else out there. Thanks again from everyone eagerly, happily following the development of ad nauseam. Filling up a piss bottle in your honor.

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A very cohesive game. Stellar writing, killer music, tremendous art. Each piece comes together impressively. As cutting as a mirror's edge. Thank you for sharing.

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nice

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Absolutely wonderful game. 

What does it truly mean to lay yourself bare? Through the different layers of ways in which this could be done, I think Sera is able to accomplish them all. This game explores a relationship with such deep emotional intensity - a truly heartfelt encapsulation of emotions and feelings. 

But most of all, the thing that I keep thinking of, is the guilt that I hold within myself, that still has yet to be scrubbed away. 

Excellent work, not jut to throwpup, but to the entire team. You all made something really exceptional.

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I really really really liked this. the slow slide from a genuine attempt at self-love into almost unfeeling self-destruction is really well done and there were a lot of things I found genuinely relatable (wuh oh!). will be checking out ad nauseam asap

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oh also i recommended it to my ex. idk if they will play it but i'm doing my best to spread the good word

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that so based! glad you enjoyed this, i really love you words :D

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update my ex played it. i don't think they have an itch account but they said it made them nauseous and they liked it. mission accomplished I assume

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i have a lot of thoughts about this and i'm not sure how to express them, so i'll just say that i liked this a lot. thank you for making me think!!!

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thank you for playing, hime!!

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hell yeah! happy you played and enjoyed it

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i asked a few of my friends to read it too, i want to see what more people think about this vn
it's really well made, it's so impressive you put it together for a jam! 🙏🙏🙏

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thank you for spreading it!; i'm super curious too!! we crunched super hard every day aha but it was totally worth it

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how about you build up that heartbreaker score

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AYYOOOOOOO

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IS 20 MILLION ENOUGH

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You're Gonna Carry That Weight 

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OH YAY! they get to hold hands!

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:D YAY

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This game made feel stuff i didn't know i could feel, piss/10. a masterpiece. 

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world record score

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💜

Nah 

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HOLY SHIT 10/10 PLAY NOW

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:LETSFUCKINGPISS:

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:LETSSSSFUCKKINNGGGGGPIISSSSSSSSSSS: